So me and my ex bf broke up christmas eve after about a year of being together. Like relationships cago we went from being happy to breaking up because he cheated, to getting back together, trying to make it work and eventually came to the mutal agreement to break up because things were not working christmas eve. I knew since November that things were not going to continue to work, and the week leading up to our break up, I just knew it was coming. Yes I am sad its over, but now wasn't the time to be together, mainly because his mom is strict and he could not get around to seeing me often, I don't kBnow if we will pick it back up when we're 16, when his mom will lessen her grip and possibly let him date and see me, I doubt it because he became a different person completely and I hated that but at this point i just want his a friend in my life. He became such a big part of my life, and also my bestfriend at that, and I don't want to lose that frindship with him, we've both helped eachother through a lot despite how things turned out and he still means a lot to me. I am not looking for a relationship with him again right now, I have chosen to take the time to be single and just learn to love me and embrace who I am, but knowing he is still a friend and someone I can turn too would mean a lot to me. But the only problem is I am scared he won't want to talk to me, or he just won't respond. When we initally broke up we agreed to be friends and he wanted to stay and talk but I left and I told him I hoped he found someone for him and he seemed...pissed and hurt but I wasn't being spiteful; and whenever I do grow the balls to text him I never know what to say, and so I just don't do it. And since I have a very irrational fear of death due to my anxiety, I always get afraid and think he'll die or something before I get the chance or that it'll just be late. So girls, any advice on what I can say or anything to just relax myself just to contact him?
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