Hey so i broke up with my boyfriend about a year ago. We dated for 2 and a half years and he was my first real relattionship and my first love. I was also his first realtionship and first love as well. I invested everything i had into that realtionship. I loved him very much and being a year later i still have strong feelings for him. There isn't a day i don't go without thinking about him. We broke up because i found out he cheated on me. It ended quickly and simply, he never begged for me back after. We just cut all communication and we havent spoken since. Our realtionship was pretty rough, he seemed to screw up alot but i kept giving him chances until he finally cheated. I know i still love him very much and i still care for him. Ive been having troubles moving along with my life, i keep on living in the pst and dwelling on my loss. Ive been fighting myself whether or not i should message up one day and just get some closure. Icant be sure if he ever really did love me or if he still does. When we broke up i never let it show that it effected me and neither did he. I assumed he got over it pretty easy and im guessing he thought i did as well. I just dont know if i should lay it all out on the table and get it out of my system the way i actually feel or if i should just let it be and continue to feel like this. Now dont get me wrong im not asking for him back i just wanna figure this all out. I wonder if he ever thinks about it. I know it wasn't easy for him though because his friends would tell me that he isnt himself. He started to party alot, drink, smoke and he also moved schools after we broke up. I miss him even to this day and i cant get him off my mind and i dont think its healthy anymore. I deffiantly dont hate him, i forgave him a long time ago for what he did although he might think i hate him. Well what do you think ? Should i talk to him ?
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