Depression Support

[emmarussek]

I have ADHD, anxiety, depression, but no one listens to me when i try to tell them because my life is amazing. my life is great im just extremely mentally unstable. everytime i go for a walk i think of jumping in front of a car and ending it all. but im to much of a weak wimp to do that. i cant stand myself. I cut every night, i starve myself most days, and my best friend just told me she was tired of me. my sister is also suicidal, so i just feel like a burden on my parents. i honestly have no purpose. im just a whiny little fat bitch. why was i even born. i just needed to get this off my chest because not even the guidance counselours listen anymore (and yes i know i spelled that wrong). i get bullied and i honestly think the world would be a bit of a better place if i didnt exist.

[firestorm104]

just because your life is amazing on the outside, it doesn't always define the way you feel on the inside. to me, it usually feels like 90% of the world has nothing to do with it most of the time. a lot of mental conditions can be hereditary, and if your sister also struggles, then it's likely you both face the same conditions. but beyond your sister, this about you and what you deal with every day. you shouldn't feel weak just because you struggle. because you don't end your life, you're still here to give it another chance to turn it into something better, whatever it is that you might want for yourself. there's nothing wrong with sharing with other people the things that are going on for you. keep trying until they listen, and see if finding a therapist could help you find ways to overcome it, as well as solely being there to listen to you and what you need. you're worth more than what you believe right now. don't give up, because you're worth fighting for